Three days ago was what they used to call Christmas. They used to give presents and have big meals with families and it was all to do with a prophet they called the Son of God. What or who is God, I wonder?
Well, Kaleem is supposed to be the fulfilment of a prophecy. He always used to say that Razjosh had told him that they made up prophecies so that they could make event fit them so if justified certain things happening. Well, maybe. But all that stuff about the Peace Child and the Babel Tower was just- spooky, really. Marijam still won’t talk about it all really. Yet when we were in the Z Zone, it all seemed as if it must have been real enough.
Anyway, day 358 was just like any other day. Except that it’s beginning to get lighter again. I try to always go out on sunny days and get the sun to shine on my head. They told me that at the hospital. It will stop me feeling so down.
I haven’t got time to be depressed, though. It’s hard and involved work, this reintegration of the Z Zoners into the Normal Zones. I was at a meet for all of Day 358. I met with six other people. Louish and Frazier also dropped by. Frazier is delighted that we are going to start with the children- in fact the second level of the education programme. They’re going to come into the Normal Zones for one meet a week. They’re all going to be supplied with modern dataserves. I’ve been asked to help write some of the programmes. In some ways it’s quite exciting.
There’s just this little doubt at the back of my mind. This is all very well, and it all seems nice and positive. But is it just to make us all feel better? Is it what they really want? Have we really got down to the bottom of what the problem was really all about in the first place?
Frazier and Louish have heard nothing from Kaleem. In fact, they asked me if I’d heard anything from him. Goodness knows what he’s doing now, ore even where he is.
I just really wonder whether it can ever be completely right, if we still have switch-off and they don’t. What’s going to happen to their children? If we haven’t discussed that properly, then we’re not really making any progress.
I hadn’t really thought about it myself, until Kaleem and I went into the Z Zone. We’d been bought up until then – well at least had – Kaleem has always been a bit different, partly because of hi father and partly because Marijam had spent so much time in the Z Zone – to take it so much for granted. But then, it was needed before disease came back to the planet. Otherwise, we’d have been totally overcrowded. Now, I’m not at all sure. Can anyone help me with this?