Friday, 29 March 2013

Day 312 3519 New Friends

I’m really getting to like my new place now. I’ve got some sort of routine going now, and Louish has been in touch re the Adulkis. She asked me to plan the day for them. I’ve almost completed that now. I really enjoyed doing it.
Best of all, though, I’ve got to know a couple of new people. Masie Thomas and Julien LaFonte. Masie called by to welcome me to the block.  She says that people basically keep themselves to themselves, but do keep an eye out that everyone is okay. It can be quite odd, with so many living alone now. You could die and no-one would notice. Even the monitors might not pick it up. Not soon enough anyway. So, there’s a system for everyone making sure that they’ve seen their neighbours every couple of days and we let our “buddies” know if we’re going away.
I actually asked her in for coffee. She accepted and we had a really good chat. She, too, has just lost the love of her life. He’s accepted a post on the other side of Terrestra. That should not normally be a problem, these days. Except that he met someone else. Someone he preferred to her.  How cruel. How sad. At least Kaleem claims he still loves me.
She’s working as a chemical analyst, and is getting to look at how the Zandrian antidote and the vaccine against Starlight Express disease are changing in connection with the Terrestran version of the disease.
We really got on well. She’s invited me to eat with her next Saturday.
Julien LaFonte lives two floors down. I met him when the lift jammed and then the robot that came to repair it blew a fuse or something and started swearing at us. It actually became quite threatening and Julien managed to disable it.  That meant, though, that we had to walk down the stairs to get help and it was quite hard convincing the concierge droid that Julien had had to damage the robot or we might have got hurt. That droid is amazingly humanoid. He claims to distrust Julien because “he’s a sad old queen who thinks he’s a woman.” Julien said that the machine was wrong. At times, it was true, he did become Julienne and wore a wig and a woman’s tunic. He liked to keep in touch with his feminine side. But he was not a “queen” – a 20th Century word for homosexual. Those genes had been well and truly irradicated, and he certainly wasn’t a throw-back.
But Julien was incredibly funny.  He has eyes that crinkle up when he smiles. He’s promised he will come and visit me one day soon, but he’ll come as Julienne. I’m looking forward to that. He seems like fun.
So, new friends then. The light gets brighter.   

Monday, 25 March 2013

Day 308 3519 My New Apartment

It has been hectic since I last posted this Global Log. I’ve taken the plunge, inspired by how quickly Marijam and Gabrizan found a lovely apartment and have settled in and got out of Louish’s way. I decided it was time for Louish to have her life back and it was time for me to get on with mine and stop moping about. So, I went home-hunting as well.
I’m writing this from the new apartment. I found it three days ago, moved in two days ago, on the 306th and now everything is sorted. I’m still a little dependent on Louish: she used her credits to put down a deposit and she’s paying the first twenty-day period rent. Just until everything on the Adulki project is finalised and then I’ll have a proper income, and not have to rely on Social Credit. 
So it means that I’ve got this place which is a little nicer than what I could otherwise have afforded. It’s quite a quiet building, though there are plenty of people my age living there. It’s in the block next to where Louish and Frazier used to live, though of course my apartment is much smaller than the one they had. Even so … compared with the Z Zone. I do have the same lovely view that they had of London Harbour and I quite like watching the Supercraft docking and taking off. There's still so many coming from Zandra, and they till need our acorns even though they’re now getting a supply grown there.
I think it is going to get a bit lonely soon.  I’ve been so busy the last couple of days, getting this place the way I want it.  But all the systems are working now. I’m hooked up to all the services. I’m back on the map. I’ll be getting some assignments soon, and then the Adulki project will kick in full tilt in the next few days. The future’s looking a bit less grim.
But, hey, all you Wordtext users, is my G-log not interesting enough for you? And all my former friends haven’t you learnt to write Wordtext yet? Or perhaps you can read it but can’t write it yet? Well reply in multimedia, then. I just feel a bit at the moment as if I’m talking to a void. I’m dying to hear from you all. A few comments might make me feel less lonely.

Tuesday, 19 March 2013

Day 302 3519 Marijam and Gabrizan

Marijam and Gabrizan have been here five days now. They have decided to stay on Terrestra a while. Marijam has found an exciting new project. She’s actually going to be involved with the reintegration of the Z Zone. She may be working with Kaleem, wherever he may be.  Gabrizan has managed to persuade the Plantation governors on Zandra that he should do some work here. He’ll be looking more closely at plant-life here, in particular the evolution of the Common Oak – the plant that is saving Zandra. It is interesting. It’s already responding to the rapid season cycles on Zandra.
Marijam and I talked about Kaleem yesterday. I almost envied her and Gabrizan but then remembered how many years she’d been without him before they met again. I’ve only been without Kaleem for a couple of months, and anyway, for much of that time I wasn’t really with it. But she seems to understand why … he’s left me, or rather, why he’s made me leave him.
Tomorrow, they are looking for an apartment and so am I. Louish is complaining that she is going to feel lonely. She has got used to having me around, she says. And then with her own daughter here as well. She says she has been spoilt.
Louish, lonely, never. Anyway, we have the Adulki visit to organise.
I’ll probably be a little lonely. But then, I’ll be busy too.
Somehow I’m lightening up a little. I’m actually beginning to see my life getting back on some sort of track.
Though I’ll never forget thinking of him every night, just before I go to sleep.  

Thursday, 14 March 2013

Day 297 3519 Mothers

Well, in the end, it wasn’t too bad, I suppose. She has agreed not to bad-mouth Kaleem. In fact, as far as my family is concerned, the whole Kaleem subject is off limits. I have said I will go and see them. But I’m not going to go and live there. As soon as I’m completely well, I shall find my own apartment and start my own life. I really consider Louish, Marijam and Gabrizan my family now. I suppose I’m still trying to keep a connection with him.
She arrived mid-morning, carrying a huge bunch of flowers. Flowers! That’s what you get from strangers, best friends or from lovers. Not from your mother. You want love and comfort form your mother. But she’s never been all that good on that score. Then I offered her coffee. Louish got out of the way. There we sat making compliments to each other, not getting down to the real matter in hand. I noticed she looked pale She remarked that I looked better than the last time she saw me, and that Louish had done well, persuading me to dress in something more colourful.
Then, after two hours of skirting round it all, we began to really talk. She said she’d always  admired Kaleem and thought that he was basically a trustworthy kind of person, and that she was just shocked that he had left me. I tried to make her see that he’d really only done that because he thought it would be safer for me not to be associated with him. Yes, I was hurt by that, but on the other hand, I appreciate that he’d done it because he cared about me. She conceded in the end that that had been a caring thing to do, but she could see that I was still upset, and of course she was upset that I was upset. So, she finally said it, she would not say another word against him. In the end we agreed that we would not talk about him again as we both got so upset.
Louish then called us for lunch, which was pleasant enough. Afterwards Louish and I showed her around the Attachments’ Compound. She was impressed. I’ll miss the place when I leave. I guess Elders’ attachments are rather special people. The facilities are great here, but it’s the way people are that give it its really special atmosphere.
Well, she’s left now and I’m exhausted. But tomorrow Marijam and Gabrizan arrive. We’ll spend a coupe of days entertaining them and the I think it will be down to business with the Adulkis.   

Saturday, 9 March 2013

Day 292 3519 Life Goes Slowly

So here I am, all settled now in Louish’s apartment. I thought I would find it odd, living in a community made up of lots of older ladies. But it’s fine. They’re pretty feisty ladies, actually. Are they the women behind the men? Can men only become Elders if they have a good woman behind them? Now there’s a thought. I wonder whether one day they will have female Elders. We have women do everything else, after all.
Actually, though, Louish and I have been pretty girly since I’ve been here. We’ve done loads of shopping. And we even went out – my first time out in public – to the new Reality Shopping Mall. You go there and pick the clothes off a rack. You have to get some tokens when you arrive. You hand them over and take the clothes. You actually look in mirrors with them on, instead of using probationary imaging. It was an experience. Just to think, they used to shop like that all the time, ten thousand years ago. Anyway, I’ve got a load of new tunics, some jewellery, leggings and I’ve changed my hair colour. She didn’t say so, but I’m guessing she was thinking that was a good idea to stop people recognising the ditched ex-partner of the Peace Child. Oh, she’s persuaded me to a few brighter colours than I’d normally choose, and you know, I actually like them. They seem to give me a lift. I suppose I’d got too used to the greyness of the Z Zone. 
No more words about the Adulki visit. I’m getting restless. Is this a sign that I’m getting better – from the fall and from Kaleem? She did say the other day, when we arrived here, she wouldn’t go ahead with it until I’d seen my mother. Daughters and mothers need to be together. Well, we all know what she means by that. “Get your own backyard sorted out first,” she said. She’s probably right. But I’m not looking forward to it.